I have a date?

But he told me to carry on as I normally would. 

I don’t know. We’ll see. 

1. The casket of Michael Brown exits Friendly Temple Missionary Baptist Church at the end of his funeral in St. Louis, Missouri August 25, 2014.

2. Police officers move in to arrest protesters as they push and clear crowds out of the West Florissant Avenue area in Ferguson, Mo. early Wednesday, Aug. 20, 2014.

3. Police officers detain a demonstrator for protesting Michael Brown’s murder in Ferguson, Missouri August 18, 2014

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#michael brown


He broke the silence ONCE at 10am exactly today. I ate something small for lunch and managed to keep it down. 

The silence is breaking again now, and I’m cautious. Extremely, exceedingly cautious. Estimating more silence to come soon. 

But it’s been broken. 


If he says no…

No, it’s okay. I’ve been thinking about things, too, and it’s okay. I understand it. If this is what’s going to make you happy, I respect that. 

But, you know, that last weekend when we were together and happy? You came upstairs to check on me, and you got into bed next to me, and you told me that you loved me. And I know that you were drunk and probably thought I wouldn’t remember, but that’s not the kind of thing you just forget.

I never got to tell you that I loved you too. This all happened so fast, and all I’ve been thinking about is that you might be gone forever and I never told you. You have no idea. I will never forgive myself for that. 

I meant what I said about being on the serious track with you. I know there are some obstacles coming up in our path, but I’m looking at them and saying, “I see these big, scary things and I want to get through them with you.” Where I think you’re saying, “No, those obstacles are too big.”

And if that’s the case, then, you’re right: it is better to get out now before serious damage happens. So, it’s time for me to go. 


You will get through this. Through this night, this week, and this whole situation. I know it.

Dustin Howard

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#cri du cœur

heartache survival guide (cont)

16. Take in enough toxins to make you cry. Cry until you get sick. Empty yourself out and feel how hollow and vacant every part of you is. Feel disgusted. Do it again. Repeat. Repeat.

17.Realize the answer has to be no if they come back. They left you once and they’ll leave you again. They. Don’t. Want. You. Realize you might be relieved if they don’t come back. Make yourself sick again.

18. Take something strong enough to knock yourself out for at least fifteen hours. Wake up and demand to return to the nothingness. Wake up and forget for nine seconds. Why nine? Because today you only forgot for eight.

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#cri du cœur

Stop calling me. I’ll call you when I figure out what I want.

Charlotte York (via whatwouldcarriesay)

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#sex and the city


heartache survival guide (cont.)

13. Call up your friends. They’re there for you, and will let you cry in your time of need. They will distract you and get you out of your tiny apartment. 

14. Make a list of the things that will be good today. Write things on the calendar that will be good later. Look forward to them. One day at a time.

15. Drink. Smoke. Eat something at least once a day. Toxins do their job so much better when you’re not eating, but breakups are a primary cause for relapse into whatever your now distant significant other took out of you. The fall from light to darkness is hard. 

16. unknown.

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